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CHAPTER XIX - THE AWAKING
Still Jacob Meyer hesitated. The great secret was unlearned, and, if
this occasion passed, might never be learned. But if he hesitated, Mr.
Clifford did not. The knowledge of his child's danger, the sense that
her life was mysteriously slipping away from her under pressure of the
ghastly spell in which she lay enthralled, stirred him to madness. His
strength and manhood came back to him. He sprang straight at Meyer's
throat, gripped it with one hand, and with the other drew the knife he
wore.
"You devil!" he gasped. "Wake her or you shall go with her!" and he
lifted the knife.
Then Jacob gave in. Shaking off his assailant he stepped to Benita,
and while her father stood behind him with the lifted blade, began to
make strange upward passes over her, and to mutter words of command.
For a long while they took no effect; indeed, both of them were almost
sure that she was gone. Despair gripped her father, and Meyer worked
at his black art so furiously that the sweat burst out upon his
forehead and fell in great drops to the floor.
Oh, at last, at last she stirred! Her head lifted itself a little, her
breast heaved.
"Lord in Heaven, I have saved her!" muttered Jacob in German, and
worked on.
Now the eyes of Benita opened, and now she stood up and sighed. But
she said nothing; only like a person walking in her sleep, she began
to move towards the entrance of the cave, her father going before her
with the lamp. On she went, and out of it straight to her tent, where
instantly she cast herself upon her bed and sank into deep slumber. It
was as though the power of the drug-induced oblivion, which for a
while was over-mastered by that other stronger power invoked by Jacob,
had reasserted itself.
Meyer watched her for awhile; then said to Mr. Clifford:
"Don't be afraid and don't attempt to disturb her. She will wake
naturally in the morning."
"I hope so for both our sakes," he answered, glaring at him, "for if
not, you or I, or the two of us, will never see another."
Meyer took no notice of his threats; indeed the man seemed so
exhausted that he could scarcely stand.
"I am done," he said. "Now, as she is safe, I don't care what happens
to me. I must rest," and he staggered from the tent, like a drunken
man.
Outside, at the place where they ate, Mr. Clifford heard him gulping
down raw gin from the bottle. Then he heard no more.
All the rest of the night, and for some hours of the early morning,
did her father watch by the bed of Benita, although, lightly clad as
he was, the cold of dawn struck to his bones. At length, when the sun
was well up, she rose in her bed, and her eyes opened.
"What are you doing here, father?" she said.
"I have come to see where you were, dear. You are generally out by
now."
"I suppose that I must have overslept myself then," she replied
wearily. "But it does not seem to have refreshed me much, and my head
aches. Oh! I remember," she added with a start. "I have had such a
horrid dream."
"What about?" he asked as carelessly as he could.
"I can't recall it quite, but it had to do with Mr. Meyer," and she
shivered. "It seemed as though I had passed into his power, as though
he had taken possession of me, body and soul, and forced me to tell
him all the secret things."
"What secret things, Benita?"
She shook her head.
"I don't know now, but we went away among dead people, and I told him
there. Oh! father, I am afraid of that man--terribly afraid! Protect
me from him," and she began to cry a little.
"Of course I will protect you, dear. Something has upset your nerves.
Come, dress yourself and you'll soon forget it all. I'll light the
fire."
A quarter of an hour later Benita joined him, looking pale and shaken,
but otherwise much as usual. She was ravenously hungry, and ate of the
biscuits and dried meat with eagerness.
"The coffee tastes quite different from that which I drank last
night," she said. "I think there must have been something in it which
gave me those bad dreams. Where is Mr. Meyer? Oh, I know!" and again
she put her hand to her head. "He is still asleep by the wall."
"Who told you that?"
"I can't say, but it is so. He will not come here till one o'clock.
There, I feel much better now. What shall we do, father?"
"Sit in the sun and rest, I think, dear."
"Yes, let us do that, on the top of the wall. We can see the Makalanga
from there, and it will be a comfort to be sure that there are other
human beings left in the world besides ourselves and Jacob Meyer."
So presently they went, and from the spot whence Meyer used to shoot
at the Matabele camp, looked down upon the Makalanga moving about the
first enclosure far below. By the aid of the glasses Benita even
thought that she recognised Tamas, although of this it was difficult
to be sure, for they were all very much alike. Still, the discovery
quite excited her.
"I am sure it is Tamas," she said. "And oh! how I wish that we were
down there with him, although it is true that then we should be nearer
to the Matabele. But they are better than Mr. Meyer, much better."
Now for a while they were silent, till at length she said suddenly:
"Father, you are keeping something back from me, and things begin to
come back. Tell me; did I go anywhere last night with Mr. Meyer--you
and he and I together?"
He hesitated and looked guilty; Mr. Clifford was not a good actor.
"I see that we did; I am sure that we did. Father, tell me. I must
know, I will know."
Then he gave way.
"I didn't want to speak, dear, but perhaps it is best. It is a very
strange story. Will you promise not to be upset?"
"I will promise not to be more upset than I am at present," she
answered, with a sad little laugh. "Go on."
"You remember that Jacob Meyer wanted to mesmerize you?"
"I am not likely to forget it," she answered.
"Well, last night he did mesmerize you."
"What?" she said. "/What?/ Oh! how dreadful! Now I understand it all.
But when?"
"When you were sound asleep, I suppose. At least, the first I knew of
it was that some noise woke me, and I came out of the hut to see you
following him like a dead woman, with a lamp in your hand."
Then he told her all the story, while she listened aghast.
"How dared he!" she gasped, when her father had finished the long
tale. "I hate him; I almost wish that you had killed him," and she
clenched her little hands and shook them in the air.
"That is not very Christian of you, Miss Clifford," said a voice
behind her. "But it is past one o'clock, and as I am still alive I
have come to tell you that it is time for luncheon."
Benita wheeled round upon the stone on which she sat, and there,
standing amidst the bushes a little way from the foot of the wall, was
Jacob Meyer. Their eyes met; hers were full of defiance, and his of
conscious power.
"I do not want any luncheon, Mr. Meyer," she said.
"But I am sure that you do. Please come down and have some. Please
come down."
The words were spoken humbly, almost pleadingly, yet to Benita they
seemed as a command. At any rate, with slow reluctance she climbed
down the shattered wall, followed by her father, and without speaking
they went back to their camping place, all three of them, Jacob
leading the way.
When they had eaten, or made pretence to eat, he spoke.
"I see that your father has told you everything, Miss Clifford, and of
that I am glad. As for me, it would have been awkward, who must ask
your forgiveness for so much. But what could I do? I knew, as I have
always known, that it was only possible to find this treasure by your
help. So I gave you something to make you sleep, and then in your
sleep I hypnotized you, and--you know the rest. I have great
experience in this art, but I have never seen or heard of anything
like what happened, and I hope I never shall again."
Hitherto Benita had sat silent, but now her burning indignation and
curiosity overcame her shame and hatred.
"Mr. Meyer," she said, "you have done a shameful and a wicked thing,
and I tell you at once that I can never forgive you."
"Don't say that. Please don't say that," he interrupted in tones of
real grief. "Make allowances for me. I had to learn, and there was no
other way. You are a born clairvoyante, one among ten thousand, my art
told me so, and you know all that is at stake."
"By which you mean so many ounces of gold, Mr. Meyer."
"By which I mean the greatness that gold can give, Miss Clifford."
"Such greatness, Mr. Meyer, as a week of fever, or a Matabele spear,
or God's will can rob you of. But the thing is done, and soon or late
the sin must be paid for. Now I want to ask you a question. You
believe in nothing; you have told me so several times. You say that
there is no such thing as a spirit, that when we die, we die, and
there's an end. Do you not?"
"Yes, I do."
"Then tell me, what was it that spoke out of my lips last night, and
how came it that I, who know no Portuguese, talked to you in that
tongue?"
He shrugged his shoulders.
"You have put a difficult question, but one I think that can be
answered. There is no such thing as a spirit, an identity that
survives death. But there is such a thing as the subconscious self,
which is part of the animating principle of the universe, and, if only
its knowledge can be unsealed, knows all that has passed and all that
is passing in that universe. One day perhaps you will read the works
of my compatriot, Hegel, and there you will find it spoken of."
"You explain nothing."
"I am about to explain, Miss Clifford. Last night I gave to your sub-
conscious self--that which knows all--the strength of liberty, so that
it saw the past as it happened in this place. Already you knew the
story of the dead girl, Benita da Ferreira, and that story you
re-enacted, talking the tongue she used as you would have talked Greek
or any other tongue, had it been hers. It was not her spirit that
animated you, although at the time I called it so for shortness, but
your own buried knowledge, tricked out and furnished by the effort of
your human imagination. That her name, Benita, should have been yours
also is no doubt a strange coincidence, but no more. Also we have no
proof that it was so; only what you said in your trance."
"Perhaps," said Benita, who was in no mood for philosophical argument.
"Perhaps also one day you will see a spirit, Mr. Meyer, and think
otherwise."
"When I see a spirit and know that it is a spirit, then doubtless I
shall believe in spirits. But what is the good of talking of such
things? I do not seek spirits; I seek Portuguese gold. Now, I am sure
you can tell where that gold lies. You would have told us last night,
had not your nervous strength failed you, who are unaccustomed to the
state of trance. Speaking as Benita da Ferreira, you said that you saw
it and described its condition. Then you could, or would, say no more,
and it became necessary to waken you. Miss Clifford, you must let me
mesmerize you once again for a few minutes only, for then we will
waste no time on past histories, and we shall find the gold. Unless,
indeed," he added by an afterthought, and looking at her sharply, "you
know already where it is; in which case I need not trouble you."
"I do not know, Mr. Meyer. I remember nothing about the gold."
"Which proves my theory. What purported to be the spirit of Benita da
Ferreira said that it had passed the secret on to you, but in your
waking state you do not know that secret. In fact, she did not pass it
on because she had no existence. But in your sub-conscious state you
will know. Therefore I must mesmerize you again. Not at once, but in a
few days' time, when you have quite recovered. Let us say next
Wednesday, three days hence."
"You shall never mesmerize me again, Mr. Meyer."
"No, not while I live," broke in her father, who had been listening to
this discussion in silence.
Jacob bowed his head meekly.
"You think so now, but I think otherwise. What I did last night I did
against your will, and that I can do again, only much more easily. But
I had rather do it with your will, who work not for my own sake only,
but for the sake of all of us. And now let us talk no more of the
matter, lest we should grow angry." Then he rose and went away.
The next three days were passed by Benita in a state of constant
dread. She knew in herself that Jacob Meyer had acquired a certain
command over her; that an invincible intimacy had sprung up between
them. She was acquainted with his thoughts; thus, before he asked for
it, she would find herself passing him some article at table or
elsewhere, or answering a question that he was only about to ask.
Moreover, he could bring her to him from a little distance. Thus, on
two or three occasions when she was wandering about their prison
enclosure, as she was wont to do for the sake of exercise, she found
her feet draw to some spot--now one place and now another--and when
she reached it there before her was Jacob Meyer.
"Forgive me for bringing you here," he would say, smiling after his
crooked fashion, and lifting his hat politely, "but I wish to ask you
if you have not changed your mind as to being mesmerized?"
Then for a while he would hold her with his eyes, so that her feet
seemed rooted to the ground, till at length it was as though he cut a
rope by some action of his will and set her free, and, choked with
wrath and blind with tears, Benita would turn and run from him as from
a wild beast.
But if her days were evil, oh! what were her nights? She lived in
constant terror lest he should again drug her food or drink, and,
while she slept, throw his magic spell upon her. To protect herself
from the first danger she would swallow nothing that had been near
him. Now also she slept in the hut with her father, who lay near its
door, a loaded rifle at his side, for he had told Jacob outright that
if he caught him at his practices he would shoot him, a threat at
which the younger man laughed aloud, for he had no fear of Mr.
Clifford.
Throughout the long hours of darkness they kept watch alternately, one
of them lying down to rest while the other peered and listened. Nor
did Benita always listen in vain, for twice at least she heard
stealthy footsteps creeping about the hut, and felt that soft and
dreadful influence flowing in upon her. Then she would wake her
father, whispering, "He is there, I can feel that he is there." But by
the time that the old man had painfully dragged himself to his feet--
for now he was becoming very feeble and acute rheumatism or some such
illness had got hold of him--and crept from the hut, there was no one
to be seen. Only through the darkness he would hear the sound of a
retreating step, and of low, mocking laughter.
Thus those miserable days went by, and the third morning came, that
dreaded Wednesday. Before it was dawn Benita and her father, neither
of whom had closed their eyes that night, talked over their strait
long and earnestly, and they knew that its crisis was approaching.
"I think that I had better try to kill him, Benita," he said. "I am
growing dreadfully weak, and if I put it off I may find no strength,
and you will be at his mercy. I can easily shoot him when his back is
turned, and though I hate the thought of such a deed, surely I shall
be forgiven. Or if not, I cannot help it. I must think of my duty to
you, not of myself."
"No, no," she answered. "I will not have it. It would be murder,
although he has threatened you. After all, father, I believe that the
man is half mad, and not responsible. We must take our chance and
trust to God to save us. If He does not," she added, "at the worst I
can always save myself," and she touched the pistol which now she wore
day and night.
"So be it," said Mr. Clifford, with a groan. "Let us pray for
deliverance from this hell and keep our hands clean of blood."
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