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Letter 60 - To Mrs. Montford |
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_ Letter LX - To Mrs. Montford To Mrs. Montford Philadelphia, October 20. AH, dear madam! how much has your letter afflicted, how much has it consoled me! You have then some hope of his return; but, you say, 'twill be a long time first. He has gone where I cannot follow him; to the end of the world; where even a letter cannot find him; into unwholesome climates; through dangerous elements; among savages---- Alas! I have no hope. Among so many perils, it cannot be expected that he should escape. And did he not say that he meant not to return? Yet one thing consoles me. He left not his curses or reproaches on my head. Kindly, generously, and justly didst thou judge of my fidelity, Henry. While thou livest, and as long as I live, will I cherish thy image. I am coming to pass the winter in your city. I adopt this scheme merely because it will give me your company. I feel as if you were the only friend I have in the world. Do not think me forward or capricious. I will not deny that you owe your place in my affections _chiefly_ to your relation to the wanderer; but no matter whence my attachment proceeds. I feel that it is strong; merely selfish, perhaps; the child of a distracted fancy; the prop on which a sinking heart relies in its uttermost extremity. Reflection stings me to the quick, but it does not deny me some consolation. The memory of my mother calls forth tears, but they are not tears of bitterness. To her, at least, I have not been deficient in dutiful observance. I have sacrificed my friend and myself, but it was to her peace. The melancholy of her dying scene will ever be cheered in my remembrance by her gratitude and blessing. Her last words were these:--
"I have wronged thee, Jane. I have wronged the absent; I greatly fear, I have. Forgive me. If you ever meet, entreat _him_ to forgive me, and recompense yourself and him for all your mutual sufferings. "I hope all, though sorrowful, has been for the best. I hope that angelic sweetness which I have witnessed will continue when I am gone. That belief only can make my grave peaceful. "I leave you affluence and honour at least, I leave you the means of repairing _my_ injury. _That_ is my comfort; but forgive me, Jane. Say, my child, you forgive me for what has passed." She stretched her hand to me, which I bathed with my tears.--But this subject afflicts me too much. Give my affectionate compliments to Mr. Montford, and tell me that you wish to see your JANE. _ |
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